It's taking forever

It's been more than 2 years since I have the first stage for my bottom surgery and is still not over. I felt so frustrating and my life have been basically been put on hold. I get emotionally time to time that is still not over. Looking at all the scare I've gain from my lower surgery sometimes make me feels like what the f*** I'm going with myself. Sigh, I can wait for this to be over. It's taking forever.