Why be a feminine transman?

Super feminine trans men make me really uncomfortable. I know that gender expression is not dictated by identity and I really want to be supportive of people wearing what they want, but trans men already get enough shit about just being "tomboys" or "girls dressing like guys," and when I see someone all decked out in makeup and a dress and heels and acting all cutesy and feminine while saying they're a boy, I just feel like I'm being made fun of or being made a mockery of.

Femme boy blues

I’m starting to think that the reason it took me so long to discover that I was ftm is that I’ve always presented femme, even though something about my identity as female and my feminine body never felt right.

A case of bad wording and high confusion

Genderqueer?

Names Marcel. Genderqueer. I Dunno bout most of you but sometimes being genderqueer sucks cuz I feel like I don’t fit anywhere… 

Like I still question if I’m trans and if I am i dunno if I could ever have the guts to go through the transition, and if I’m not I feel like people in the straight and gay community look at me like I’m just another trend following confused girl… 

Even people in the gay community look at genderqueer and trans questioning people like they are just another trend.. Like I can’t even be open about my name change cuz I’m afraid of people not respecting it. I don’t want to face the embarrassment… 

How do you get past people judging you for…basically not knowing who you are yet? 

I'm a transman, and I have a 13 y/o gender neutral sibling that really wants to wear a binder

but the idea scares me. I've been wearing a binder for a year, and I don't think I need to explain that it's not a 100% pleasant experience. I think 13 is too young to wear a binder. What do you think?

I don't fit in anywhere

Names Marcel. Genderqueer. I Dunno bout most of you but sometimes being genderqueer sucks cuz I feel like I don’t fit anywhere… Like I still question if I’m trans and if I am i dunno if I could ever have the guts to go through the transition, and if I’m not I feel like people in the straight and gay community look at me like I’m just another trend following confused girl… Even people in the gay community look at genderqueer and trans questioning people like they are just another trend.. Like I can’t even be open about my name change cuz I’m afraid of people not respecting it. I don’t want to face the embarrassment… How do you get past people judging you for…basically not knowing who you are yet?