What I do not like wearing

I already dress the way I would if I would transition, I think. It's not particularly manly, or even boyish. I love mini shorts to no end. What I do not like wearing, is my body, my face, my voice, my everyone-knows-i'm-a-woman. I want to be able to wear these same clothes and this same hair, but with a body of a man. Is it weird? I feel like I should feel more, I feel like I should feel the need to be more, always more manly and more boyish. On bad days I dress more boyish, to hide the feelings of dysphoria from myself. Is it weird. Am I weird

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