running out of options

I’ve been officially out a year in 16 days, but I’ve been out off and on since I was 6. I’m waiting to start T until my fiance is with me so we can both start T, but the dysphoria is getting worse.. I can’t get a job because everyone wants me to dress in female clothes.. And I tried, I broke down into a panic attack.. It’s getting hard to get a job and I’m running out of options.. I don’t know what to do anymore..

— gagealexandr