Pronoun angst

Ok so I have an issue. It's common that transmales hate being called ladies or whatever the hell. But someone said to me "Ladies First" and I almost freaking lost it. Especially since I had to deal being called by my birth name as well. Ugh. I know they had good intentions because I am not out but how do I suppress my urge to scream "I AM NOT A FUCKING GIRL" whenever called one????

Also. Someone outted me on purpose because I came out to them and made a huge mistake since they are SUPER conservative. And because I told them to call me he and then someone called me "she" (ugh) she screamed loudly "WHY DO THEY GET TO CALL YOU SHE IT ISNT FAIR. WHY DO I HAVE TO CALL YOU HE" I looked her dead in the eye and misgendered and misnamed her. Idk if it was the right way to go, but idk I just lose control when faced with transphobia... I'm scared to come out to anyone now. Thoughts??

I hate lesbians

I hate lesbians. They creep on me more than any other demographic does. I rarely ever feel safe around them, because I’ve only met a couple of lesbians ever (both trans and cis) who aren’t predatory and/or invalidating.

just came out to my Dad

I just came out to my dad and I didn't think that he would be accepting and he was so I thought I would share it to let people know that things don't always go bad

Scared of going bald

I'm really scared I'm going to go bald or something when I start t. I also saw this thing that said that the more likely you are to grow a beard the more likely you'll go bald. I'm adopted so I don't know anything about the genetics behind it. So I'm really freaking scared bc I don't wanna go bald.

Boys can have feelings too

My mum loves uber flamboyant famous males but I can’t be kinda feminine. I’m sensitive and emotional and feminine. Like I’m literally the same person I always was. Just different pronouns. People just expected me to become an emotionless drone or something. I have feelings. A lot of them. And v little control over my emotions right now bc of the hormones I’m on. It’s really annoying and wish it would stop.

I can't stop crying

I hate myself. I can’t stop crying. I wish I had come out earlier so that I could be on T already, because I can’t take this dysphoria anymore I can’t.

Any advice for coming out?

I am still in the closet and i’m scared of coming out. So far… The only one who knows who I am going to come out about it is my best friend and my little brother… My friend is really supportive of me but my brother absolutely refuses to even register me being trans and insists that I’m his older sister and that’s who I am now so that’s who ill always be….. Any advice for coming out…?

My doctor actually said this

My doctor said to me “oh sorry, I cannot give you a referral for a therapist so you can get your harmones, because it is against my religion.”

Wish to get breast cancer

Sometimes, on my worst days, I wish to get breast cancer so my parents would have to let me have breast removal surgery. 
But don’t worry, I don’t try to do anything dangerous.

Breasts -- my worst and best attribute

My breasts cause me a lot of dysphoria because they're so large but sometimes I think maybe they're my only positive physical attribute since I never get compliments about any other specific aspect of my appearance