unemployed during transition

im in the beginning of my physical transition just one month into hrt so i don’t pass exactly i look more androgynous than anything and recently lost my job. so i know i need to look for another one but i keep hesitating, i find my self creating excuse after excuse as to why i need to hold off. like my name change is pending so i have to go threw the explanation of why my half my documents are under a different masculine name. and that eventually my employment documents will need to be changed, or that soon i will start to look and sound differently. why i don’t use female pronouns and the agitation of constant misgendering. i’m “out” in my personal social circle to friends and family and iv become comfortable in my bubble where the people i know, know who i am and treat me as any other person its when i wander out side that bubble where i begin to have major amounts of anxiety and self doubt which blows i used to be such a social person.