Sick of lying..

I'm started t 5 years ago. No one knows not my past as I've move away from where I grew up. I don't know now if I want to be open about it it stay stealth.. Cause staying stealth sometimes feels like carrying a burden on my shoulder all the time.  I know I don't need to explain/report to anyone. But it's just the fact that I need to lie from time to time and I'm sick of that.

[UK]