Understand the need to be financially stable but I just can't wait to transition. I feel that I'm wasting my time living meaninglessly.
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A collection of private thoughts from transmen all over the world.
A collection of private thoughts from transmen all over the world.
I agree 100% with you on that bro!
ReplyDeleteI finally understood what I am when I was 20. I had to wait another 12 years before I could start transitioning. What did I do in all that time? I did whatever was meaningful to me. I buried myself in work and other aspects of life to forget my body. I couldn't wait either but I had to. I'm sure I did the right thing because now I am comfortable and happier than ever, it was worth it. If I had transitioned earlier I think my life would be even more miserable than not transitioning. I can only imagine the inconvenience and trouble I would face at work.
ReplyDeleteWe all have different levels & limitations to our personal dysphorias. I could still "put up" with mine because my mind was strong and I kept my goal in mind at all times. I worked a lot but I always had time to myself, where I could indulge in myself i.e. being my complete male self at home (I was renting a room).
As for you, if it is really unbearable, do what you need to do. If you are still studying, change things up a bit. Study part-time, work full time. This way you can move out, afford your own treatment, purchase binders and generally take care of yourself. Education is important but honestly in this day and age, a degree really isn't the most important thing anymore. That is if you are young and you think your parents are not going to accept you. However if your family accepts you, by all means start transitioning already. You may have to deal with people at school/work but at least your foundation which is your family is there to be your rock and your pillar.
Sorry for the long spiel, but I hope you'll do whatever needs to be done as long as you are safe. Please take care.
Yours,
Razr