Top surgery anxieties

I’m SO ready for top surgery but can’t afford it yet. Top surgery is almost all I think about. I got a second job recently to help me save up for surgery. But I’m nervous about the pain and the healing time because my day job kind of requires lifting and movement that isn’t conducive to my future post-op healing. So I’m already nervous about that…….but even being shirtless in front of anyone that’s not my partner, even a doctor or a surgeon, is really stressful to me.