binded too long

I think I binded to long and I think I hurt my ribs

Bottom surgery frustration

It's been more than 2 years since I have the first stage for my bottom surgery and is still not over. I felt so frustrating and my life have been basically been put on hold. I get emotionally time to time that is still not over. Looking at all the scare I've gain from my lower surgery sometimes make me feels like what the f*** I'm going with myself. Sigh, I can wait for this to be over. It's taking forever. 

Vacuuming?

U said something about 'vacuuming' it. I know what it is but what o u mean by vacuuming

As a black transman of color..

... I am afraid of being attacked or killed by police or over-vigilant people with weapons. This is my biggest fear next to losing my entire religiously conservative family. 

My birth gender offered me about some protection. My actual gender offers me none. I am not physically powerful and use a cane. I am also afraid this will invite attackers who wish to take advantage of my physical weakness to prove themselves.

Top surgery anxieties

I’m SO ready for top surgery but can’t afford it yet. Top surgery is almost all I think about. I got a second job recently to help me save up for surgery. But I’m nervous about the pain and the healing time because my day job kind of requires lifting and movement that isn’t conducive to my future post-op healing. So I’m already nervous about that…….but even being shirtless in front of anyone that’s not my partner, even a doctor or a surgeon, is really stressful to me.

Eating is hard

One of the scariest changes about starting hormones was the mere thought of gaining weight. I am 2.5 weeks on testosterone but I have lost, not gained, weight. Boys have eating disorders, too.

Ex-gf wanted to "fix" me

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My ex girlfriend got mad at me when I told her I was trans. This was a few months after we broke up. She said that meant she had never dated a real girl before. She said she was going to "fix" me and sexually abused and raped me. I'm too scared to tell anyone what happened even though I've hinted at it to one of my friends before. I still have to see her everyday at school. I'm starting t soon and am scared she'll do something again.

Transitioning in Singapore?

Hello I'm a transman that's not from singapore, I prefer to not disclose my country as the LGBT community here are not openly accepted. Wish to start my transition in singapore :-)

Currently pre-T and 20 years old, saw few posts here about Ts, just wondering how much will the T shots costs and will I have to go through psychologists in order to diagnose me before starting T?

Approximate prices will help me alot, thanks admin for posting this and for all your answers.

i feel like i’m slowly killing myself

binding until my ribs ache, starving myself in order to maintain a too thin androgynous appearance, staying inside to avoid being misgendered or judged. this body feels like a battlefield, like i’m some kind of disease it’s trying to reject… i feel so run down and tired. i just want to be who i am, but there’s so many obstacles and it’s overwhelming.

I watch porn and I want to watch FTM porn

I'm starting to realize that other trans* guys are really attractive. I can't find any. Does anyone have suggestions?

Sometimes my dysphoria makes me want to kill myself so badly

but I'm afraid to talk to anyone about it because I don't want to make my other transgender friends more dysphoric or feel like I need to rely on them, and no one else would understand.

I'm a transman, and I have a 13 y/o gender neutral sibling that really wants to wear a binder

but the idea scares me. I've been wearing a binder for a year, and I don't think I need to explain that it's not a 100% pleasant experience. I think 13 is too young to wear a binder. What do you think?

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I'm an ftm and I was raped but I haven't told anyone because I'm afraid that nobody will take me seriously because I'm an ftm (masculine presenting) and my rapist was a female.

alcoholic relief

So getting impaired by alcohol (don't do actually bc it's not worth it) has relieved my dysphoria...or really any emotional feeling. Great and I can't tell you how many times I've misspelled words on this thing particularly the same word.

Music is my life

...and I’m super terrified that my singing voice will be ruined by going on T. At the same time, I’m worried that my identity won’t register to other people (even after I correct them and eventually forced to come out to them) without hormones. I’m a nervous wreck lately.

sex with guys

Recently almost had sex with a close male friend but can't help but thinking now how will i have sex with a guy? Cause no ones going down the front way, so what should do?

gym buddy?

Hi everyone. I am a transgender. I'm living at Bukit Panjang, Singapore. Looking for a buddy to go to the gym. Leave message if you are interesting and I will add you. Thank you.

Endocrinologist in Singapore

Can anyone recommend a good endocrinologist in singapore that can help me with HRT ? I know private docs are really ex, is there any specific one that are cheaper as i am still schooling >< . also does government hospital still does HRT for transgenders. I have a psychiatric report if that is necessary 

pump

Has any transman here tried to use a pump to grow a dick? 

I am binding unsafely

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I am binding unsafely because my family doesnt support me being trans

I know it’s terrible to bind unsafely but I just am having really bad dysforia recently and it sucks
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Yo–stop.
What are you doing? Why are you justifying putting your life and health in danger? Wear a sports bra or two if it’s that bad, but you’re honestly just flat out being irresponsible.

Sorry for not sugar coating it but it needs to be said. You wouldn’t let your friend get away with “I know it’s awful to drink and drive all the time but I’m having such a hard time right now and don’t want other people to drive my car”. So why are you doing that to yourself?
-greymatters