Eating is hard

One of the scariest changes about starting hormones was the mere thought of gaining weight. I am 2.5 weeks on testosterone but I have lost, not gained, weight. Boys have eating disorders, too.

On FTM p*rn

To the guy who asked about ftm p*rn -
theres always bonusholeboys on tumblr. you have to pay to watch their whole videos but the sneakpeeks are good too. and there is also TransboyNH on xtube. he doesnt have a ton of videos but theyre good and free.

Hate dating / no prosthetics problem

Whenever I pass to someone I’ve met and it’s come to the point where they ask if I’ve lost my virginity yet, I’ve always had to reply- “It’s complicated.” They’ve got all these ideas in their head on why it’s complicated, and I never fancy coming out with, “Oh it’s because I wasn’t born with a penis.”

Scared of T's side effects

I go in for my first T appointment tomorrow and I’m so scared because the side affects. I’m naturally really bad at controlling my anger and one of my brothers was bi-polar and my other brother was schitzophrenic. And it’s putting a lot of stress on my relatonshps with people around me. I don’t know what to do but feel I like I need T but I’m scared

Dad's tattoo

I’m afraid to change my name to something not similar to my birth name, cuz my dad got my initials tattooed on his arm, and I don’t want him to go through all of the trouble of changing it.

Trans friend

I just really need a trans guy friend who can understand my problems and be there with me through them.

Tips for a 14yo coming out?

I’m 14 almost 15 and I’m thinking about coming out soon to my parents. Any tips, story’s or anything would be nice. Thank you.

I'm afraid I'll never find anyone

Not just because I’m trans and I think it’d be hard to find someone willing to accept me and love me for who I am, but also because I was sexually harassed and now I’m terrified to be near anyone. Let alone be simply touched by anyone. What if I do find someone but I’m too scared to accept any relationship myself?

Sick with anxiety

Everyday before work I’m sick to my stomach with anxiety about my dysphoria. Makes me wanna die sometimes.

Time bomb

I once read that once you attempt suicide, it never stops being an option.

(My depression is better than ever. My parents support me. I’m on T. I aid my local trans community.)

There’s always this nagging thought that I’ll still end up killing myself if things get too sour.

(I’ve quit college for good. I’ll never afford surgery. I’ll never be totally independent. My two jobs want to fire me because I’m an HR time bomb. My trans community is dragging me down.)

And the scary thing isn’t dying. It’s disappointing everyone who’s invested their love, time, and money in me.